I sincerely wish for this year to end sooner.

It's been another futile year in my life...the most insignificant and meaningless,if you ask.
I  no longer actually have friends,they're all just faces that I smile at.Apparently,it's going to be that way from now on.
I wish I was five again.Getting to play in the bouncy ball pit once in a while was what I lived for.
It was all I needed,actually.I did not need "friends".

I'm just sitting here,feeling like a big time screw up.Oh,I surely am fifty shades of fucked up.
I don't even like the person I am,anymore.I'm not a very nice person any longer,I admit.
I have regrets and I am trying to live with them,pushing through every day like a disinterested person.
Praying for a miracle I probably don't deserve.

Do you know that cool Elephant called Rosie from the film  "Water for Elephants"? The one who actually made it worth watching,even made up for Robert Pattinson's "acting skills"?
I want to be that very Elephant,Rosie.She can do a whole lot of brilliant gymnastic tricks,that I cannot learn  to perform in a million years.
I want to live in the 1930s,where everything was beautiful.People dressed impeccably,men always wore suits and hats and stuff,the way they spoke.. They had vinyl records,and other pretty things that no longer exist.
Look what we have now...a song by Rihanna called "Diamonds" which sounds inspired by the rhyme twinkle twinkle little star,which,by the way was written by a five year old? See,I told you,being five years old is the best.I shouldn't be judging someone,I'm sorry,but I think no one has facebook statuses dedicated to the kid who wrote twinkle twinkle li'l star.And he deserves it,more than Rihanna.
And I definitely don't want to live in a world where women get raped in a bus,and chucked onto the streets or a lot of innocent little kids get shot down at a school.
I want to move to a safer country,a safer planet,if you ask.
I'll tell you something,everyone's actually secretly wishing for a zombie apocalypse.
I 'm waiting for them to take over,the world's not very inhabitable anymore anyway.Then,I don't even have to go through the torment of writing exams for the rest of my life that I won't study for anyway.
So,I sincerely ask for this year to end already.