And one morning.

All red and yellow,they kiss the Earth,crunchy fall leaves.
It's way beyond 8am and I know I'm late again,
I walk alone today.I traverse the the muddy pathways and the tar roads.
And I walk alone most days.I walk alone,and I'm hit by the subtle smell of wild grass.
Most other mornings,Its a communal gathering,when we throw our bags down,sit in a circle,aware that it's the principal's office next to us or pass around food and conversation.
But today,I don't sing to myself,
thoughts don't race through my head.
 I'm that girl,in a corner by herself,arms crossed,
Right under the parching sun.
It's the end of the road today.
Today,I stand at the end of all the noise,the morning buzz,
 I stand apart.
I can't tell if I want to,but I stand apart.

Trying to Replace The Irreplacable?

A few months ago:The cold concrete floor.An Early Summer morning.
We're all too busy cramming up  last minute answers on the Exam morning.
We're making memories to last a lifetime,maybe longer even,and we're not even aware.
...
If only I could go back and tell myself to hold onto the moment a bit longer,a bit firmer,because soon,I would want that very moment so bad.
*Invisible readers*: No! Not with your nostalgic posts again dude!
Me : Just bear with  me.I need to get this of my mind?
We all grow up,grow apart.Lose and forget what we once loved.What's the big deal? It's just called moving on in life,it's what everybody does,no?
Well,to kids like me out there,it is quite a huge deal,actually.We're told to forget the people we grew up with,a part of our support system.Move on,and adapt to new habitats.
That's how survival works.That's how life works.
But does it have to be so harsh? Do we really have to leave behind all that we love?
Is memories the only thing promised to us?
If you ask me,growing up was never easy for anybody.
But the hardest part is building anew.and acting like it's meant to be that way.
To be in a new,confusing,challenging,exciting world that faces us now.
A world that replaces  the safety blanket that kept us warm and happy,always with a cloudy sky,with only glimpses of sunlight.
Replacing what seems to be the irreplacable,seems to be an art of its own,a skill.
And I'm sure we'll all get good at it someday.
For now,I'll just take a nap and dream of the good 'ol days.

October Obsession.

You know that feeling you get when your Mum randomly decided to go grocery shopping,and your cabinets and fridge is overflowing with food for a while after that? That awesome feeling?
*Invisible Readers* : "Ahaha"
Well,that's how I feel about October I think.
October to me,is a month  which is full of everything wonderful.
(No,my birthday doesn't fall in October,if you're wondering.:P)
Like I said,October is full.
Full of surprises,Full of sunshine(October heat),
of happy moments,of festivities and celebrations,school events,holidays and a lot of other perks.
October is like Sunshine after a week of rain..it's the first sigh of relief after the usually scary and hectic first term of the school year.
For some reason,it is a very pleasant time to be around,and It leaves me wonderful memories,always.
It's the perfect weather...it's when they days just begin to get shorter.Pre-winter,cool winds mixed with warm.
October is the month I had the hugest crush ever,too.It brings back that warm,fuzzy feeling sometimes.
Words cannot describe how beautiful October usually is.I hope this one brings all the magic around too.:)